ek mahine baad...
svapn aur main bahut hee khushee se do bahanon ke roop mein jee rahe the. usane meree naam arun se aruna ke lie mahila bana diya. usane mujhe us naam se sambodhit kiya aur mujhe javaab dena pada.
yah ek maheene mere poore jeevan mein sabase mushkil samay tha. mujhe apane aap ko ek mahila banaane ke lie vibhinn dard, vibhinn samasyaon, vibhinn chintaon se pahale aatmasamarpan karana pada. mainne lagabhag sabhee cheejen seekheen theen ki ek mahila ko pata hona chaahie. mere sabhee mardaana vyavahaar aur bhaav sab chale gaye the aur isake bajaay mainne apanee naee stree bhaav aur vyavahaar praapt kiya. meree baithane kee shailee, baat karane kee shailee, snaan kee shailee, dekhane kee shailee, sab kuchh chalane kee shailee badal gaee hai. main ek stree kee aankhon se duniya ko dekhana shuroo kar diya.
aur yah meree patnee thee jo mere lie yah sambhav bana.
mere phlait aane ke baad, main aur adhik aaraam karana chaahata tha. lekin yah meree patnee thee jo baakee ko khaarij karate hue kahatee hain ki vah mujhe apane kuchh kapade pahane dekhana chaahata tha. mujhe hamesha kee tarah usake aadesh ka paalan karana pada.aur vah ek laal rang ka bikanee ke saath aaya tha. unhen dekhane ke baad, haalaanki, mujhe kuchh sharm mahasoos hua. lekin mujhe apanee sharm nahin dikhaana chaahie kyonki main jald hee ek sthaayee mahila hone ja raha tha.
mainne apanee patnee kee madad se laal rang ka bra pahana tha ve achchhee tarah se phit nahin the kyonki meree patnee kee tulana mein main thoda mota hai. phir usane apana krtrim stan bana diya. agale mere panty aaya tha lag raha tha mahaan jab naram saamagree apane naram ganja shareer ko chhootee hai. meree patnee ne mujhe bahut saare andaroonee kapadon ko pahanane ka muhoort dene mein madad kee isake baad, usane mere lie ek laal blauj, naarangee petee aur ek naarangee rang kee sari ka khulaasa kiya. mainne apanee patnee kee madad se us tang blauj ko pahana tha.usane peteekot pahanane ka aadesh diya.aur mainne usaka peechha kiya aur us petee ko baandh diya.pudhalee meree sari aae. usane mujhe sari ko baandhane mein madad kee, jo ki 20 minat tak le gaee. usane mujhe dresing tebal mein ishaara kiya aur main ek bada darpan ke saamane baithee.main dekh sakata tha ki ek ladake ne ek mahila ko sari pahane baithe baithe the. mere chehare par mekap pahale hee byootee paarlar mein kiya gaya tha. isalie usane mere chehare par bahut mekap laagoo nahin kiya.usane gulaabee lipastik ke ek aur kot ko mere hothon par laagoo kiya. isake baad usane aabhooshan ko apane shareer ko ek karake ek karake poora kiya. usane pahalee baar ek jhoothee baalee lagaee. usane phir mere haathon mein kuchh choodiyaan lagaeen, mere pairon ko sone ka pel, gardan kee chen, loket, bindee, angulee kee angoothee aadi ek karake usake baad usane apane naakhoonon ke rang ko badalane kee jaroorat mahasoos kee aur gulaabee nelapolish mein ise rang diya.
ant mein mera badalaav poora hua mainne khud ko aaeene mein dekha aur mere sir par vig ke bina mere andar ek khoobasoorat mahila dekhee.
vah haalaanki meree sundar lag rahee taareeph ...
poore din ko seet, kaise vyavahaar karana, kaise muskura karana, kaise baat karana, aadi kaise khaane ke lie meree patnee ke maadhyam se ek mahila kee tarah seekhana tha. ham agale din ke lie yojana banaee hai. meree patnee ne vaada kiya tha ki agale hamaare khareedaaree ka din hoga
haalaanki, ham donon so gae usane mujhe ek naram gulaabee raat mein neend mein soya. lekin aadhee raat ko, main phir se jaag gaya kyonki meree yaun ichchhaon ko naram padaarthon ke prabhaav ke kaaran uchch sthaan par pahuncha diya gaya tha. haalaanki mainne apane seks poore din poore simalet kee goliyaan khaee jo meree yaun ishaare kam karatee thee. lekin us samay goliyon ke prabhaav chale gae the aur yahee vajah thee ki mujhe mumakin kee jaroorat mahasoos huee. main baatharoom mein gaya aur mere haath se choodiyaan kholee. phir mainne do baar gupt roop se skhalan kiya. phir main phir se so gaya
subah subah aur subah naashte ke baad mainne jaag utha, hamane khareedaaree kee soochee taiyaar kee. svapn ne mere shareer ko ek tep ke saath saavadhaanee se maapa. usake baad ham baajaar mein chale gae vahaan hamane sabase pahale bra aur pentee ke vibhinn rangon kee khareed shuroo kee.
isake baad hamane kuchh rangeen sari, taiyaar blauj, churoodar, top, jeens, lambee skart, minee skart aur kaee any pashchimee vastr khareede. isake baad hamane ek gahane kee dukaan mein pravesh kiya aur hamane vibhinn rangon mein baaliyaan, naak pin, naak kee angoothee, choodee, chen, haar, pelals aur kya nahin kee tarah alag-alag gahane khareedeen!
ham kuchh shrrngaar aaitam khareedane ke lie gae the jinamen naakhoon, lipastik, aankhon ke chhaayaen, mekap upakaran, brash, paudar aadi shaamil hain ...
phir ham ek joote kee dukaan mein gae aur kuchh saamaany joote aur oonchee edee ke joote khareede.
mahange vigs ke 2 set khareedane ke baad ham shaam mein apane phlait vaapas aa gae
main smrti ko yaad kar sakata hoon ki us din main aakhiree baar purush veshabhoosha pahanee thee. usake baad, mainne kabhee bhee purush shart aur paint pahana nahin tha.
sapaat aane ke baad, meree patnee ne bina aaraam kie bina mujhe un khareedee vastuon ke saath prayaas karane ka aadesh diya. mujhe yaad hai ki vah din bahut hee khaas din tha kyonki us din bhaarat banaam paakistaan kriket mach aayojit hua tha. lekin meree patnee ne maich dekhane ka koee mauka nahin diya kyonki usane un cheejon kee koshish mein vyast rakha tha.
haalaanki, mujhe doosaree samasyaon ka saamana karana pada, jab main pahalee baar oonchee edee ke jooton mein chalane kee koshish karata tha. jab mainne apane chehare par lipastik aur any shrrngaaron ko laagoo kiya aur jab main apane naakhoonon par naakhoonon ko laagoo kiya to mujhe alag samasya ka saamana karana pada. jab mainne bra aur pentee, sari, churidar ko apane saath pahana tha, to mujhe kaee samasyaon ka saamana karana pada. lekin yah svapn tha jo har kshetr mein madad karata tha. mainne meree aasha ko nahin chhoda, kyonki vah hamesha mere paas thee
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